Post by plethorian on Aug 11, 2012 22:58:14 GMT -5
Guys, I'm getting desperate here. Long story but I'll try to sum it up as best I can.
Two years ago I started my first and current job at a restaurant, where there was a really hot host, my coworker. He is now a server. Anyways, I've had a crush on him since day one. Tall, sweet but sarcatic, rock star hair and actually looks good in scruff, and a to-die-for sexy voice. Seriously, he's gorgeous. But I was in crazy age-difference LDR at the time and nothing could happen. Plus he was dating a girl.
Fast forward to when I break up with my age-LDR-guy, bout a year ago, and I'm now single and excited. You'd think he was my first choice but unfortunately not only was he still dating that girl, but he's actually probably not a good choice for a boyfriend, in my case.
He's not going to school or planning to, not advancing to any better job than as a server at this restaurant, and his recreational activities include drinking profusely at parties (I'm not much of a partyer, prefer to keep to myself) and smoking weed (I do not do drugs not ever). So basically while he's drop dead gorgeous and attractive and nice, he's not a good idea. You know? Bad boy. But a sweet one.
So anyways, I was single for all of a month before I hooked up through a complicated series of events with my current boyfriend. Whom I love! A lot! In fact, he shares some of the same traits with Hot Guy, but he's actually going to school, studying for a good and long career, and hopes to move up. Plus he is the sweetest thing, doesn't do drugs, and always treats me right. He's amazing, and I really appreciate him. But problem is that not too long after I get together with my now-bf, Hot Guy goes single. His gf came out lesbian and he was SO on the market. Going to parties, meeting tons of girls, and sleeping with a few of the servers. Not terribly attractive in a person, but I still had a crazy huge crush on him. And as he's doing all this, he is CONTINUOUSLY asking me out! I keep having to tell him I have a bf and I'm not interested, but man did it ever kill me. He was finally asking me out after like a year and a half of working together, and I couldn't say yes. Not that I SHOULD, but I wanted to.
He ends up dating one of his fellow servers. I'm still stuck at the bottom rung of the restaurant as hostess. My main problem here guys, is that lately I have been getting insanely jealous. INSANELY. I keep seeing him with this girl, hanging out with her everyday, planning month long trips to Thailand, basically living on their own with each other because neither of them is doing anything other than working part time and partying. No plans for the future. Me? I'm stuck at university, studying my butt off, living with a smothering family, with a boyfriend who has an unbending schedule of school and work too. So I don't get to spend terribly much time with him.
So I see Hot Guy and his girlfriend, and it just kills me, you guys, just kills me. I have the stupidest schoolgirl crush on him. And today? Oh dear, today. In conversation, he mentions that I am indeed very attractive, and that he would still ask me out, single or dating. It was a very honest confession and while he said it kinda off-hand it kinda rang with truth and he seemed almost embarrassed, like he was still interested in me despite his girlfriend. I was so ecstatic, even though I played it off, I nearly died of joy. I wasn't going to act on any of it, but to hear it from a crush? Damn. AND FIVE MINUTES LATER! When I ask him if he has excited plans for tonight! He says he's fucking his girlfriend. And that he's stoked. And just goes on to tell me how awesome it is. And it was like....it wasn't like I was friendzoned, because I am very aware that we are and will only ever be friend and do not intend to act on it...it just kinda blew my top right off my head, I was so mad at him for rubbing that in my face. I can't tell whether he knows that I genuinely like him or whether he's just ignorant. It pissed me right the fuck off.
tl;dr: serious case of grass is greener. I wanna punch everything.
Two years ago I started my first and current job at a restaurant, where there was a really hot host, my coworker. He is now a server. Anyways, I've had a crush on him since day one. Tall, sweet but sarcatic, rock star hair and actually looks good in scruff, and a to-die-for sexy voice. Seriously, he's gorgeous. But I was in crazy age-difference LDR at the time and nothing could happen. Plus he was dating a girl.
Fast forward to when I break up with my age-LDR-guy, bout a year ago, and I'm now single and excited. You'd think he was my first choice but unfortunately not only was he still dating that girl, but he's actually probably not a good choice for a boyfriend, in my case.
He's not going to school or planning to, not advancing to any better job than as a server at this restaurant, and his recreational activities include drinking profusely at parties (I'm not much of a partyer, prefer to keep to myself) and smoking weed (I do not do drugs not ever). So basically while he's drop dead gorgeous and attractive and nice, he's not a good idea. You know? Bad boy. But a sweet one.
So anyways, I was single for all of a month before I hooked up through a complicated series of events with my current boyfriend. Whom I love! A lot! In fact, he shares some of the same traits with Hot Guy, but he's actually going to school, studying for a good and long career, and hopes to move up. Plus he is the sweetest thing, doesn't do drugs, and always treats me right. He's amazing, and I really appreciate him. But problem is that not too long after I get together with my now-bf, Hot Guy goes single. His gf came out lesbian and he was SO on the market. Going to parties, meeting tons of girls, and sleeping with a few of the servers. Not terribly attractive in a person, but I still had a crazy huge crush on him. And as he's doing all this, he is CONTINUOUSLY asking me out! I keep having to tell him I have a bf and I'm not interested, but man did it ever kill me. He was finally asking me out after like a year and a half of working together, and I couldn't say yes. Not that I SHOULD, but I wanted to.
He ends up dating one of his fellow servers. I'm still stuck at the bottom rung of the restaurant as hostess. My main problem here guys, is that lately I have been getting insanely jealous. INSANELY. I keep seeing him with this girl, hanging out with her everyday, planning month long trips to Thailand, basically living on their own with each other because neither of them is doing anything other than working part time and partying. No plans for the future. Me? I'm stuck at university, studying my butt off, living with a smothering family, with a boyfriend who has an unbending schedule of school and work too. So I don't get to spend terribly much time with him.
So I see Hot Guy and his girlfriend, and it just kills me, you guys, just kills me. I have the stupidest schoolgirl crush on him. And today? Oh dear, today. In conversation, he mentions that I am indeed very attractive, and that he would still ask me out, single or dating. It was a very honest confession and while he said it kinda off-hand it kinda rang with truth and he seemed almost embarrassed, like he was still interested in me despite his girlfriend. I was so ecstatic, even though I played it off, I nearly died of joy. I wasn't going to act on any of it, but to hear it from a crush? Damn. AND FIVE MINUTES LATER! When I ask him if he has excited plans for tonight! He says he's fucking his girlfriend. And that he's stoked. And just goes on to tell me how awesome it is. And it was like....it wasn't like I was friendzoned, because I am very aware that we are and will only ever be friend and do not intend to act on it...it just kinda blew my top right off my head, I was so mad at him for rubbing that in my face. I can't tell whether he knows that I genuinely like him or whether he's just ignorant. It pissed me right the fuck off.
tl;dr: serious case of grass is greener. I wanna punch everything.
